Sorry to all the followers that have read my blog in the past. I kind of dropped the ball here at keeping everyone updated.
Quick recap of my year:
- I graduated
- I lived in Kirksville for the month of June working for admissions
- July, I will be living with my parents and working with my dad for a bit
- Gretchen's getting married!
- Then I move to Waco, TX to start seminary for youth, student and family ministry.
Tonight is my last night in K-Vegas. It is really weird and very bitter sweet. This past month has been a difficult one. Some things that have been reaffirmed to me:
1. I could never live alone
2. I don't communicate well
3. I could never retire
Let's start with #1
I could never live alone:
I can't stand to be alone for long periods of time. Literally can not stand it. I get really sad and just start randomly crying and feel so lonely. Yes, I love my personal space...but when it comes to being alone for a whole week...even part of a week...I can't do it.
#2
I don't communicate well:
Going off of the above...I never really told my friends here that I was feeling this way. To that I am sorry I shut you out. To explain...
I hate confrontation. I am stubborn. Also, when it comes to fight or flight...I flee as quick as possible when it comes to things about myself. I don't like the idea of being someone else's burden or getting pity from anyone. Ironically, by me doing that...when everything comes to the surface that is exactly what happens. Therefore, in the future...if I am acting distant or different....please confront me about it. I doubt I will bring it up, so please...harass me about it.
#3
I could never retire:
I love working too much. I love having things to do with groups and to work on to bring to a group! When I don't have anything like that going on...I go crazy and just sit there...I don't think I have ever had this much down time in my life. It is too weird.
Anyways, that's my little reflection on what I've learned this past month.
For friends reading this from TSU:
I love you guys. Thank you for helping me become who I am today. All of you played a significant role in my life whether you know it or not. My first semester at Baylor is approaching quickly and I'm getting nervous, but excited. I know it's time for me to go, and I knew it was coming...I just didn't think it would get here so quickly.
Shout out to Debbie:
My friend, Debbie, has this awesome blog that always manages to say exactly what I need to hear. For tonight it was affirmation that I'm not alone, even though it may feel like it. That I am always with the Lord even if I don't feel close to Him. I need to be patient. Thanks Debbie for the encouragement.
(you can check out her blog at http://alwayssecondchances.blogspot.com/2013/06/not-invincible.html)
I love you all,
God Bless.
